I am ashamed because I was thinking about Transcend today, and cliches, and ways to avoid them, and I was suddenly hit on the head by a great big several-tonne figurative weight of shame. Because Transcend, the first novel I intended to write, is ridiculously cliche. It's a fantasy in which I haven't even made a half-decent world. It's got humor, and characters that I like, but I'm thinking that I'll probably downsize it a little. Instead of 10-15 chapters, a nice round number like seven would work. I like the number seven. It looks like 'z' if you write it right. I'm planning this because I don't want to make a fantasy epic with such loose groundings. It'd crash halfway there. So a nice novel in miniature is just the thing. Maybe I can design a pretty website for it instead of spamming people with unwanted blocks of text here on dA. And I can go on as a happier, more experienced person, who can actually finish projects. And I can be a great writer some day if I work at it.

I'm also ashamed because I was thinking of ideas for what would replace Transcend as my big project. And I thought, hey, it'd be cool if, instead of the generic medieval-type fantasy world, I could have my world in an industrial-type era. Steam-powered things and such. And I could have an order of priests that held the sun sacred, that wanted to stop the clouds of smoke from blotting it out. And then I started brainstorming possible main characters. And juddered to a halt. Because I realized that I was slipping back into the rut. After I'd deliberately set out to fully make the world beforehand, I was trying to think up a name for my main character. *headdesk* I fear that I am doomed, my friends. (And I can't even edit things, not properly. Or write actual drafts. So I'm going to have to learn somehow. Hence me wanting to have an idea that I could write and rewrite and not get the urge to go set something on fire. So yeah.)

And if you've read through all that, you deserve a cookie. Or muffin. Or pie. Or whatever. Some sweet food. Conrats!

Anyway, I'm not sure about this. Particularly seeing I only thought of doing it an hour ago. Guess I'll sleep on it.